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Jennifer Perseverante, maquilleuse professionnelle
(+33) 06.60.64.86.26
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In November, the mysterious “Lady in red” revealed herself to you on my blog. Today, our “Lady in red” is currently on a transition journey, to become fully… Sandra.

I have the opportunity to support Sandra in her transition journey as you might expect with the makeup part.

During the sessions, I saw her transform, gain confidence.

She now shares with us her testimony and photos full of emotion, simplicity, but above all radiant like the woman she is fully becoming.

Photo couverture article de Sandra FTM Article de blog parcours de transition

Desire for Femininity

Can you introduce yourself? Age, gender, family situation, profession, city.

I consider myself transgender. The Robert dictionary defines it as: a person whose gender does not correspond to the one assigned at birth. I am married and have 2 wonderful children who have left the nest some time ago. When I got married, I was so in love with my wife that I threw away all my feminine belongings. I sincerely and naively thought that my love for her would allow me to give up my femininity for good. That was true for the first 3 or 4 years, but then, my desire for femininity returned, even stronger than before. I bought feminine clothes and makeup again. I dressed as a girl in secret from my wife and everyone else. It was a huge frustration. I then mingled with the world of crossdressers to be able to live as a woman: I frequented some T-oriented establishments.

“My wife found my hidden feminine belongings and told me…”

I still wonder today if subconsciously I didn’t want her to find them. It hit her like a bomb because I hadn’t told her anything about my femininity.

She suffered a lot and I deeply regret it. It was a huge disappointment for her. In hindsight, I understand her apprehension about being with someone who no longer matched her choice. If I put myself in her place, I wouldn’t have appreciated that the woman I married transformed into a boy. We went through a difficult period for our relationship at that time. I let the storm pass for a while to protect her and to let her get used to the situation. Later, I showed her photos of me as a girl. Then I wanted to move further in my feminine journey: I decided to take hormones under medical supervision. I hadn’t told my wife because I already knew her answer would be negative. I was aware that I would have to switch between masculine and feminine appearance and that having breasts would complicate my life, but the desire for more femininity and to have breasts was stronger.

“It’s sometimes complicated to switch from female to male mode”

The opposite is easier!

Unfortunately, I still have to live as a boy in my professional environment and with a large part of my family. Today, I believe I can say that we have found a lifestyle that satisfies both of us. My wife is now aware of all my femininity.

This includes my outings as a girl:
• She helps me a lot with my clothing and makeup choices.
• She accompanies me to shops when I go shopping.
• She has given me some dresses or other clothes and makeup products.
• She also sometimes advises me on my makeup and clothing choices.
• She occasionally gives me small feminine accessory gifts she has bought.
• She even did my full makeup once.

In short, I can say today that she is wonderful through her support and help. She sometimes amazes me with ideas she suggests, which encourage me toward more femininity.

We have a beautiful bond that, strangely enough, has brought us closer.
We openly talk about delicate feminine topics sometimes and we joke about them.

“A deep need for femininity”

How long have you wanted to feel more like a woman?

I have felt a deep need for femininity dating just before my adolescence. I wore skirts and feminine underwear (panties, tights, and sometimes other more enticing things) belonging to a cousin.

Is it a temporary or permanent desire?

In my case, it’s a permanent desire, if not obsessive. I don’t want to glorify hormone treatments because they don’t come without drawbacks, but when the treatment is well adapted and especially under medical supervision, it gives me physical and mental well-being.

I started my hormone treatment a few years ago and I only regret one thing: not having done it sooner.

I feel more feminine in my mind and body. To my great joy, my breasts have appeared little by little.

I felt immense joy when I bought my first bra adapted to my new (small) breasts.

As for the downsides, it is increasingly difficult for me to hide them when I go out presenting as male.

This requires loose clothes which are not suitable for summer temperatures.

Why this desire, what does it give you?

My femininity brings me immense satisfaction and today I am addicted to it.

I physically tolerate myself less and less as a boy.

And I would like that part of my life to diminish and eventually disappear altogether.

Do you have fears about society, family, etc… any apprehensions, any discomfort?

Of course I have fears about society: in my professional environment on one hand, and also within part of my family which leads me to restrain all femininity when I am around them, and finally possible bad encounters always possible during my outings.

“What are the next steps in your feminization (if there are any), or desires you haven’t yet tried but would like to?”

For now, I don’t plan to go further with my femininity. But I don’t rule out changing my mind about a possible minor cosmetic surgery procedure.

In fact, I would simply like my masculine side to disappear completely in favor of the feminine side.

“You consider me as a girl”

Why did you call on me, and what did I bring you during this stage of your life, if I brought you anything?

I reached out to you after a friend praised your skills and professionalism.

You make us feel comfortable from the start, which is not always easy.

You are a magician who works miracles and makes us more beautiful, more “sexy” and more feminine.

You also allow us to flatter our narcissistic side.

What a joy to be at your place and see that you consider me as a girl.

I’m grateful that you accepted a makeup appointment with me at a very complicated time for you.

“I feel more beautiful and more feminine.”

Cherry on the cake: you also know how to guide us on poses to adopt for the photos you take.

I often go out to see friends after leaving your place because I feel more beautiful and more feminine.

You should know that I am very shy.

I didn’t dare to go out as a girl because I wasn’t sure of myself rightly so, as my beginnings were difficult.

Today, I feel stronger and more confident in my femininity and passing.

I also go out more easily as a girl than before.

“I don’t overdo female mode at home”

What anecdote can you share after this session? Or how did you feel after this session? What did you do right after our meeting?

After one of my first sessions with you, I felt immense happiness returning home as a girl and presenting myself for the first time as such before my wife. I hadn’t warned her.

She had never seen me for real as a girl and was very surprised by the result and found me very pretty.

(I had already shown her photos of me as a girl). I then spent the rest of the day as a girl with her.

She was a bit embarrassed at first but got used to it.

Nevertheless, I don’t overdo female mode at home because I wouldn’t want my wife to reach saturation.

We have each found a lifestyle that allows us to live our common passions or not, our family interests independently after discussion, and for my part, my feminine outings.

My wife never accompanies me on these because it’s not the life she envisioned with me.

“Encourage confiding in their wife”

So I hope my story wasn’t too long, that it will interest some of you and maybe encourage those attracted to femininity, without daring to take the step, to move forward.

Maybe my story will encourage some of us to confide in their wife and thus flourish.

In my view, it is the only real way to advance in femininity if you want to remain in a relationship: it’s not possible to progress quickly without their help and complicity.

Women are often wonderful after they get through the (violent) shock and disappointment.

“Life is magnificent as a woman.”

Final word from Jennifer

“Thank you, Sandra!” Sandra shares her experience of hormone treatment and the implications that taking hormones involves.

On this topic, I can only recommend, if you want to learn more, that you get closer to associations whose focus is trans identity (for example Acceptess-T, an association approved by the Ile de France regional health agency) and, of course, to competent medical professionals.

Finally, if the subject of transition, or more broadly trans identity, interests you, I can recommend the information available at Wiki Trans. The site offers many resources for questioning or transitioning trans people, their loved ones and their allies.

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