Feminization of Chouchou at the institut Transbeauté

Chouchou’s first feminization, who kindly shares her experience at Transbeauté, with the goal of helping some men feminize themselves and take the step.

Can you introduce yourself? Age, gender, family situation, profession, city.

Chouchou is my female pseudonym…
I haven’t chosen a female first name yet.

I am a 39-year-old man, single (although I have always wanted to start a family) and I live in the Paris region.

I was an account manager in the industry and am now retraining in the field of gourmet cuisine.

How long have you wanted to feel more like a woman?

I think I have always felt like a woman in a man’s body but without contradiction, without complexes; on the contrary, I find it amusing.

I admit that children and teens can be very mean to each other.
From my distant memory, I liked wearing my mother’s dresses and shoes. I even liked putting on lipstick.
Once I went out like that and everyone laughed. It was gentle.

Luck or misfortune, I have a very feminine face with very dark lashes (a family trait).

I remember everyone teasing me when I was a child and mistaking me for a girl.
That still happens today, especially when I don’t have a beard.

It never really left me, then I became homosexual until ten years ago when I met my ex-partner with whom I lived for 8 years.
He liked to see me wear feminine underwear in private.

Is this desire occasional or permanent?

At first, it was very natural and a permanent desire since I was little.

Then it left me because of those so-called masculinity codes and I became homosexual.

It then became occasional when I was in a relationship and for the past 3 months has been permanent.

I want to be a woman down to my fingertips and develop my feminine side.

If it weren’t for the weight of society and religion, I would go further in this feminization, beyond a simple transformation.

Why this desire, what does it give you?

I feel in harmony with myself, beautiful and alluring.
I like the codes of femininity.

It makes me happy, fulfilled.
I can fully be a woman with the outfits, wigs, shoes, etc…

When did you decide to take action, that is, to cross-dress for the first time? For what occasion? What did you feel?

I decided to cross-dress 2-3 months ago to go further in my feminization. So I did some Google research to learn how to do makeup and I came across Jennifer’s website. Her website really appealed to me, in addition to her professional experience and support for crossdressers.

I really enjoyed the makeup moment; it was truly the primary goal to learn how to do makeup and gain independence on the subject.

Then came the outfit/photos moment, which was less obvious for me.
Of course, because it was the first time but also maybe I felt like I wasn’t credible.

Do you have fears regarding society, your family, etc… any apprehensions, any discomfort?

Yes, absolutely.

As I said, as a child and teenager I endured mockery.

Later as a homosexual and in a relationship we struggled to hold hands or show affection in public without enduring looks or sometimes insulting remarks.

Just look at what happened when Minister Christiane Taubira wanted to pass the law on marriage for all and the outburst of passions.

I attract all eyes, men and women, so yes there is some apprehension about fully cross-dressing and especially going out on the street as a woman.

On the family side, they are open-minded but still had difficulty accepting my relationship with my ex-partner. The reason? A wish to be in a traditional marriage-family-children scheme and the scrutiny/criticism of neighbors, friends, family.

What are the next steps in your feminization (if any are coming), or desires you haven’t yet tried but would like?

The next step is already to better learn to do my makeup and fully feminize myself at home.

Then I would like to learn to walk femininely and be able to go out, accompanied.

Why did you call on me, and what have I brought you at this stage of your life?

I called on Jennifer because I wanted to go further in my feminization: learn to do makeup flawlessly, take advantage of it to have beautiful photos in women’s attire.

She gave me a moment of lightness and it was truly a pleasant and fun moment.

It’s a success and I plan to call on her for other services.

Thank you Jennifer