Discover the intriguing story of Stella, a person who, with the passionate support of her partner, embarks on a bold exploration of identity and gender.

This testimony promises to take you behind the scenes of an exceptional personal transformation, where gender norms are not only questioned but joyfully transcended.

What secrets will Stella reveal about her journey toward authenticity? What surprising revelations await those who dare to defy conventions?

Follow Stella in this narrative full of suspense and wonder, where every word invites you to rethink the possibilities of our own existence.

How long have you wanted to feel like a woman? What was the first “sign” of this desire?

I have had this curiosity for over ten years now.
I’ve always been attracted to fashion, both men's and women’s.
One of my teachers at school even told me that I’d make a good fashion journalist.
She was surprised by my knowledge on the subject.

Unconsciously, I also put a lot of pressure on my wife regarding lingerie, for example, and I apologize to her about that.
It’s an important element for me. I find it beautiful.
Brands like Agent Provocateur, Fleur du Mal, La Perla, Dita Von Teese…
Stockings, a garter belt, panties, and a lovely bra...
It’s the quintessence of beauty.
Things we don’t have in the men’s section! I find men’s underwear generally ugly, neutral, or even kitschy! They are just “functional.”

I’m someone for whom touch is very important.
I like cooking, touching the ingredients.
Materials like satin, silk give different sensations than men's clothes.
When I wear men’s clothes, I don’t feel sensations, whatever the piece—even if it’s very beautiful! It’s neutral.
But a dress, a skirt, or heels has an incredible effect.
You feel like the queen of the world.
The princess of the evening.

Why this desire, what does it bring you?

I crossdress for several reasons, which I list below:

• I see it as an artistic project, somewhat like cosplay.

• Stress relief, by shedding the responsibilities of my daily male role.

• Crossdressing forces me to slow down and lose control. The makeup is done by someone else; I have to be patient. High heels also force you to walk more slowly.

• A certain rebellious side towards society grows stronger—I’m fed up that men’s clothes can be worn by women, but the reverse is taboo. It makes no sense. We’re just talking about a piece of fabric… imagined by humans. All that fuss for that.

• Improving my style. Refusing nothing to myself. The men’s and women’s sections are both open to me. I can combine elements from both sections if it makes sense. For example, I like mixing a skirt with men’s Dr. Martens sandals, a hard rock t-shirt, and masculine jewelry. It’s comfortable and stylish.

• A curiosity that must answer the question: “What would I be like if I were born a woman?”

• I was looking for an activity that breaks the codes imposed daily.

I thought about driving race cars for example, but that involved several problems (impossible to do anytime, short duration…)

Crossdressing answers that because it’s somewhat forbidden. The advantage is I can do it anywhere and it’s not dangerous.

I also discover other facets of myself and better understand women. It takes time to get ready to go out.

Since then, I pay much more attention to people’s style on the street. A beautiful manicure catches my eye immediately. I don’t hesitate to compliment or ask where they bought it.

• The thrill of fooling people, making them believe I’m a real woman. This trick, the trompe l’oeil side. That amuses me immensely.

• Challenging myself by leaving my comfort zone. If you had told me last year, or even at the beginning of the year, that I would do crossdressing, I would have just burst out laughing. It seemed inconceivable. Society’s weight on this is too strong.

Do you have fears about society, your family, etc.… apprehensions, any kind of discomfort?

I don’t care because I harm no one.
I have fun.

I’m comfortable in my male body, but I want to explore crossdressing.

It interests me and brings me joy like going to a sports match, reading a great book, going out to eat with friends.
I see it as a hobby.

My wife knows, so I’m not lying to her.
And for me, that’s the most important.

If tomorrow, my colleagues, friends, family discover it,
I will explain the reasons.
I don’t want to change sex.
I don’t want to crossdress full-time, I’m not attracted to men, I feel good in my male body.

If they don’t understand, it will mean they don’t fully appreciate me.
I tell myself that one day I’ll reveal it to my family.
I think they could understand.
They seem quite open.

My biggest fear is being taken for a lunatic, someone mentally unstable, weird because they sometimes dress as a woman.

Why did you call on me, and what did I bring you in this stage of your life, if I brought you anything?

I hesitated between you and Transmakeover for the first session.

Transmakeover had quite a few clothes and wigs.
I had nothing at the time.
That directed my choice.

Between the two sessions, I bought quite a few things.
My wife and I even went shopping together.

I left your place with a magnificent wig, some extra clothes.

I made my first outing as a woman with you.
I wasn’t afraid.

On the contrary, I had a lot of fun.
I didn’t feel pressure from people around us.

It was kind.
I have the impression some didn’t even notice.

You told me I had good “passing” and it makes me want to continue.

That day will remain engraved in me forever.
We even forgot to eat!

I wasn’t hungry either.
Probably due to this intense happiness.

A final word?

I congratulate every person who has the courage to live their crossdressing.
It’s not easy in society.

Some countries have very harsh penalties for it.

I wish everyone to find happiness, to know themselves, and to be kind to others.

At work, I offered to be an ally to the LGBTQIA+ community.
So if anyone needs to talk, I’m here.

I don’t want to stay inactive.
There’s enough judging people on these kinds of criteria rather than competence.

See you soon!

Have a great weekend,

Stella