The testimony of the charming Lisa

Here is the testimony of the lovely Lisa, who gave me a wonderful welcome at her place. I was delighted with our day, and we were both very happy with the result.

Can you introduce yourself? Age, gender, family situation, profession, city.

I’m 35 years old.
I’m married and a dad to a little boy whom I love more than anything, and we live in Val d’Oise.
And you can call me Lisa!

How long have you wanted to feel more feminine?

For me, it’s something very gradual and comes in waves.
With every new stage, I want to feel a little more like a woman.
I think it started during adolescence…
I remember a dream/fantasy (I wasn’t asleep so I don’t know how to describe it) in the back of the car on the way to vacation around age 12/13 where I imagined myself as a beautiful blonde with lovely curves and red, plump lips… I was terribly excited by this thought without questioning whether I wanted to be a man or a woman at that time.

Is it a temporary or permanent desire?

Even if it is a temporary desire, it remains very present and I can’t satisfy it every time!
I don’t want to become a woman every day, but whenever I want to, I want to be as convincing as possible so I can go out without attracting attention.

I am very happy daily as a man, and as I read in other testimonials, sometimes I question why I have this desire to be a woman. I tell myself it makes no sense, and if I don’t go as far as getting rid of my things, I put them aside… then it comes back with periods where I need to wear at least one feminine item every day (often lingerie to stay discreet!).

Why this desire, what does it give you?

It’s hard to describe why this desire… but it gives me both excitement, pleasure, and a sense of completeness… to be able to be someone else and thus satisfy all my inclinations!

When did you decide to take action, that is, to crossdress for the first time? For what occasion? What did you feel?

The first time must have been around 14/15 years old, I think, with panties…
I was very excited by this… and of course, I was afraid of being caught (it happened but I don’t remember my mother’s reaction… it was quickly swept under the rug!).
Clothes and makeup came much later.
Indeed, it’s quite recent for me.
My first outing as Lisa was very exciting and very stressful.
What if someone recognized me? What if I got attacked? What if, what if…

Do you have fears regarding society, your family, etc.? Any apprehensions, any embarrassment?

Of course… As I said earlier, I’m always afraid of being recognized by close ones and especially of the rumors this could generate and which could reach people with whom I don’t want to share that part of my life.
My wife knows a certain number of things but doesn’t want to see me as a woman, she tolerates me wearing lingerie in front of her even if she doesn’t like it, which I understand…
She neither tries to stop me nor encourage me, she prefers “not to know.”

I don’t want my parents or the rest of my family to know, I think they wouldn’t understand and I don’t want to hurt them.

And then of course, always, the fear of others' judgment, and yet I’ve never had bad experiences, whether as a man asking to try on clothes or lingerie, or as a woman under any conditions.
Maybe they laughed after I left but never in front of me.
Are people more kind-hearted than we think, or have they already thought of doing the same and realize the amount of courage needed to dare to go out; because even if at first they can call me “madam” (how rewarding that is!), they can’t be fooled after hearing me speak!

I’m a shy person but I also like the “provocative” side while not wanting to be singled out (that’s a lot of contradictions!).
After leaving my appointment with Jennifer, I put on one of the outfits we had bought together during our shopping afternoon, and I went into a shop where I know the saleswomen (stress, will they recognize me? If yes, how will it go? Why take that risk, that’s stupid?), I enter, one of them says hello madam (great pleasure), the other recognizes me and immediately talks to me saying she finds me very beautiful and loves my style (great relief, great happiness) so many apprehensions for nothing!

What are the next steps in your feminization (if any), or desires you haven’t tried yet but would like?

The next steps are to do my makeup much better than I was doing so far (Thank you Jennifer for all the advice and products!) and especially to eliminate body hair (I was able to do chest and stomach once, legs another time, but since my wife doesn’t like it I avoid it, but it’s certain that I will give in one day to see how much femininity can come out of a hairless body!)

Why did you call on me, and what did I bring you in this stage of your life, if I brought you anything?

I called on you, Jennifer, for several reasons.
First, to get makeup advice (technique and color) -> perfect! I feel I’m going to improve a lot thanks to you and yet it wasn’t guaranteed with my two left hands! Second, to dare to stay in a store for more than 10 minutes not knowing which outfit to buy, dare to try it on without fear of people’s eyes and have advice on what suits me in style -> again, mission accomplished, I leave with 3 outfits tried in the fitting room, that fit me well and hide my flaws (can’t wait to eliminate some hair to try other things!) Finally, to be reassured about the credibility I can have as a woman -> mission accomplished, the transformation succeeded (especially with this new blonde wig) and I think I was called “madam” everywhere we went!

Thank you very much Jennifer for all of this.