Lilly : she is like an angel !

Today it’s Lilly’s turn to share her testimony with you. Days, weeks, months, years I have been waiting to welcome Lilly to Transbeauté since our first meeting.

We let you discover, through her testimony, how Lilly became who she is today

Who is Lilly?

“Lilly appeared about eight years ago. At first, she was filled with enthusiasm that instantly evaporated at the thought of being seen by others. But little by little, discovering everything that makes up femininity, the anxiety decreased. And it was by gradually meeting friends who share the same passion, first online and then in real life, that going out in the open became possible, even necessary. What greater pleasure than to exist in the spotlight?

With the desire to always improve her ‘passing’ to gain confidence, after choosing pretty outfits and then elegant attitudes, the perilous exercise of makeup became essential.
One layer of eyeshadow and a stroke of red on the lips are definitely totally insufficient!

Like many, it all starts with YouTube tutorials and quite a few attempts at home, with many often expensive products, not even knowing if they are suitable. Soon, we appreciate these video demonstrations as acts of a mastery worthy of Michelangelo, far beyond our own abilities!”

How about starting with a private lesson?

Jennifer knows many of us, is very pedagogical and an expert in makeup. I had a very good session, full of advice and tips, learning how to work on the imperfect canvas of my face.

And all this in a sexy and fun atmosphere. By the way, I haven’t told you yet, but Jennifer is adorable! I should have started with that.

To finish, very proud of my new makeup, I must admit I then really enjoyed going out in Paris.

Can you tell us more? Can you introduce yourself? Age, gender, family situation, profession, city.

Overcoming my natural vanity, I can admit to you, I am 53 years old! I’m separated from my wife and have two children in their twenties. I work in IT in Paris (not very sexy, but it’s still a job)…

How long have you wanted to feel like a woman, what was the first “signal” of this desire?

As can be read in many testimonies, my first stirrings around femininity date back to my childhood, around 7/8 years old, when I became aware of different behaviors between boys and girls, and that terms like beauty, softness, and pleasure were more willingly associated with femininity. From then on, my gaze toward girls became more envious, and I started boldly sneaking, with a pounding heart, feminine underwear whose pleasant touch I immediately loved.

Is this desire occasional or permanent?

I’m lucky not to have been born a woman in the wrong body. So, the desire for femininity is not permanent or desperate. It sometimes translates into a necessity to go out in the open, and at other times remains that little secret buried in my heart.

Why this desire, what does it give you?

Like all desires, I don’t really know where it comes from. I only know that it causes me a feverish and delicious thrill, and that it is the assurance that my childhood dream is still inside me. And I know that trying to intellectually understand its reasons would make it disappear. So I cannot answer this question further.

When did you decide to take action, to crossdress for the first time? On what occasion? What did you feel?

As mentioned above, I started secretly wearing feminine accessories since childhood. Difficult at this stage to talk about crossdressing, but for me, simple underwear already allowed me to imagine myself as a woman. My first real outing “as a woman” took place in 2014 at that magical place, sadly now closed, which was the MDT (maison du travesti) on rue des Dames (you couldn’t make it up!) in Paris. It was with a heart racing wildly that I arrived there after a very long night walk of a few dozen meters! After such emotion, the MDT’s safe haven of meeting confirmed to me that from now on Lilly would occupy a bigger part of my life.

Do you have fears regarding society, family, etc.? Any apprehensions, any discomfort?

Of course, I still live two separate lives, and few people know me in both contexts. And paradoxically, it is also this situation that makes me appreciate my “Lilly” moments all the more, because they remain a secret garden, a dream parenthesis.

What are the next steps in your feminization (if any), or desires you haven’t yet tested but would like to?

I love taking advantage of every opportunity to make new connections and discover new places. I feel a little more Lilly each time.

Why did you call on me, and what did I bring you during this stage of your life, if I brought you anything?

Makeup is a very important thing in feminine beauty. How many times have I been fascinated by a pretty face where a line of eyeliner magnified the gaze, where the perfect shape of the lips reminded me of cinema princesses, where the tender pink blush gave this impression of innocent softness? But this is, unfortunately, not the spectacle of art that makes us artists. You have to learn, and you are the best teacher one could imagine: pedagogical, attentive, and expert. Now, it’s my turn to apply your instructions and recommendations to improve myself!”

Can you share an anecdote following this session? Or how did you feel after the session? What did you do immediately after our meeting?

Leaving your place, in the garage driveway, I became friends with your next client. And here I go again toward new discoveries, new adventures!

Final word from Jennifer

“Thank you, Lilly.” Whatever reason drives you to be or become who you want, just for a moment or forever, Lilly’s example reminds us that the result will be the work we do on ourselves and especially for ourselves.

My role is to be the boost, the help that will assist and accompany you toward your desire.

ps: little “spoiler”: we will soon find Lilly again for an article where to go out in Paris in 2022 and soon 2023 when you are crossdressed or transgender!

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