The moving testimony of the beautiful Maggie

Maggie arrived with a few outfits, and then she completely let herself be transformed for her beauty makeover; when trying on the wigs, it was a true revelation—it suited her perfectly. If only one could be that beautiful at 70…
The photo session was a great success! Here is her story…

Can you introduce yourself? Age, gender, family situation, profession, city.

I’m 70 years old, a married man, retired, living in a small town in the Marne region in Champagne.

How long have you wanted to feel more feminine?

I think I have always been drawn to femininity and its expression.
As a child, I missed a certain feminine softness; my mother was someone who showed little tenderness. My parents did not get along, my father was quite impulsive, even authoritarian. I lived with my three brothers—we were four boys—and the softness and feminine presence was sorely lacking.
I spent three years boarding at a boys' school from age 9 to 12, and this lack of femininity around me was even more apparent.
Thank God, the neighboring girls’ boarding school allowed me, as an altar boy, to discover the most beautiful expression of femininity, and it was enchanting to see the beautiful and graceful faces of girls who glanced at me sideways as if another world was opening up to me.
During puberty, I somewhat closed myself off, and with my awakening sexuality, I became rather inhibited and ashamed of my sex. I then projected myself into a feminine ideal and identified with it.
The softness of feminine fabrics, fine lingerie deeply disturbed me, and sometimes I had this secret desire to transform into a girl, without daring or being able to make it happen.

Is this a temporary or permanent desire?

My desire to feel feminine is occasional; I feel very comfortable as a man normally, however, my desire to be a woman is recurring and strong.

Why this desire, what does it give you?

It is an intense pleasure when I can experience it.
Cross-dressing gives me the extraordinary feeling of stepping outside myself, escaping the mundane reality.

My problem is that the desire to be a woman also comes with the desire to seduce, and consequently the desire to play that role sexually; I struggle mentally and physically with this as a man.
Deep down, I mainly seek tenderness, softness, the grace of femininity, even if that also implies seduction: the temptation to seduce and be seduced, and the intimate desire to be desired.

When did you decide to take action, that is to cross-dress for the first time?

It came later, quite insidiously; about thirty years ago, I had a troubling desire to enter a cross-dressers’ boutique run by a transsexual person.
I dared to ask to buy stockings from this person; she offered me to try them on and lent me high heels to better realize the effect, and I must say that, while feeling a bit trapped, I let myself go with pleasure…
Step by step, after taking off my masculine clothes in a fitting room, I found myself fully dressed as a woman: lingerie, skirt, blouse, wig, fake breasts—and in my mind, I “became a woman,” and it was for me an intense sensation, a deep pleasure.
I bought outfits I kept secretly hidden and dressed in at home when alone, watching myself in a mirror, and…I became once more, for a few moments, “a woman, happy to feel like a woman.”

Do you have fears regarding society, your family, etc.? Any apprehensions, any discomfort?

Yes, I fear the judgment of others, especially not being credible, being ridiculous, or being seen as a pervert.
I would be very troubled if my family, especially my wife or daughter, came to know, and I do not want that; in a way, it is my secret garden, a “garden of enchantments” I must roam alone.
I have no desire to provoke or shock those who do not understand this desire, this attraction; I can only and want only to share it with those able to accept it.

What are the next steps in your feminization (if any), or desires you haven’t tried yet but would like to?

I would like to express this desire positively, not avoid it but instead explore and discover it.
I would like to try beautiful lingerie and outfits in lovely fabrics, without vulgarity, to harmonize in a way the femininity inside me with what I am in my body, through elegant and harmonious outfits, refined makeup, going out accompanied as a well-groomed and credible woman to take photos outdoors without shocking or disturbing passersby—that is to say, in an elegant, discreet outfit, not flashy but neat.

Why did you call on me, and what have I brought you in this stage of your life, if I have brought you anything?

I was very happy to meet Jennifer and her institute and to experience a makeup session in a harmonious and very clean setting, a soft and bright atmosphere.
I was immediately put at ease as an amateur cross-dresser.
There was no awkwardness, nor anything inappropriate from either Jennifer or myself; everything happened pleasantly, professionally, and relaxed.
For the first time in my life as an amateur cross-dresser, I was well made-up in excellent conditions, with all the necessary equipment: Jennifer’s talent, know-how, kindness, and eye, which knew how to highlight the best and most feminine parts of me.
Finally, I was able to express my femininity without vulgarity.
I was amazed and charmed by the result.
The photo shoot also revealed to me, thanks to Jennifer’s talent, that I could bring to light the femininity hidden deep inside me at its best.

Thank you again to Jennifer,