Tina, bigenre: exploring her femininity at her own pace

At Transbeauté, every journey is unique.

Some people come to advance a personal expression of their femininity, whether permanent or occasional. Others come to discover themselves, to reassure themselves, or simply to give space to a femininity that has been present for a long time.

Tina is one of those people who doesn’t necessarily seek to fit into a box. She defines herself as bigender or gender fluid. This means her identity is not experienced in a completely fixed way: the masculine is part of her daily life, but a feminine part also exists within her, from time to time.

Tina gently explores this femininity. Through makeup, clothing, image, and the way she views herself.

Like many people who enjoy feminizing themselves, this path is also filled with questions, hesitations, and sometimes fears.

Her testimony tells of the desire to see herself differently while remaining true to what she feels. It speaks of an intimate, progressive femininity, and a simple need: to feel beautiful, understood, and confident.

Tina, bigender, after her makeup session at Transbeauté, exploring her femininity with an elegant feminine look at the studio

Tina, can you introduce yourself? Age, gender, family situation, profession, city.

Hello, Tina is my feminine name. I’m 38 years old, and I consider myself bigender or gender fluid, even if I try to detach from labels.

I’m single. Regarding my profession, without saying too much to preserve my anonymity, after long studies, I work in a field focused on support and workplace well-being, interacting with many people.

I live in the eastern Paris suburbs, less than an hour from Jennifer’s studio.

Tina, bigender, in a floral dress after a makeup and feminization session at Transbeauté near Paris

How long have you wanted to feel like a woman, and what was the first “signal” of this desire?

Since my teenage years, I had my first thrills related to cross-dressing erotica, and I’ve always enjoyed dressing up to embody other characters or explore different identities.

Is it an occasional or permanent desire?

For me, it’s an occasional desire that emerges from time to time during my free time. I do not consider myself 100% transgender because I am also happy with my masculine personality, which dominates my daily life.

However, I sometimes take an interest in feminine fashion, even when my mind is functioning in masculine mode.

Why this desire, what does it give you?

This desire primarily gives me the pleasure of exploration, discovering feminine fashion and experimenting with different expressions of femininity.

It’s also a way for me to explore this part of myself while seeking to better understand women by immersing myself in their world, whether through clothing, makeup, or certain attitudes.

There is also a real aesthetic pleasure in this transformation, especially admiring myself in the mirror and appreciating the result, like rediscovering myself under another gender.

Tina, bigender, poses in a floral dress after her makeup and feminization session at Transbeauté near Paris

Tina, bigender, in a black feminine outfit highlighting her legs after a makeup session at Transbeauté near Paris

When did you decide to take action, that is, to crossdress for the first time? For what occasion? What did you feel?

In my teens, I tried on some of my mother’s suits when she was away. It was an intriguing experience, mixing excitement and apprehension. I felt like I was breaking a rule while discovering something that deeply attracted me.

Despite this curiosity, I then took a long break, although the desire remained in the background.

I resumed during the Covid lockdown, probably to fill loneliness and boredom. This time, the experience was more thoughtful and assumed. I felt real pleasure in exploring this facet of myself, with a sense of freedom and fulfillment I hadn’t known before.

It was also during this period that I bought my first feminine outfits, marking an important turning point in my journey.

That’s when it started to become a hobby and take a much more important place in my life.

Do you have fears regarding society, your family, etc., any apprehensions or discomfort?

Many. Already, the rise of transphobia, used as a political tool by the far right, scares me immensely.

Living in an apartment, I’m also afraid of running into my neighbors when I leave home. I also fear someone might try to blackmail me at work or talk about it to my colleagues. Even though I think I’m very unrecognizable in my feminine mode, that risk remains a source of anxiety.

I’m also scared of leaving makeup traces after a session, which could unintentionally attract attention.

As for my family, I fear disappointing them if they were to discover this facet of my personality.

I’m also apprehensive about my love life. I worry that this part of me could be a reason for rejection from a future female partner and that I would have to hide it entirely to build a fulfilling and balanced relationship.

What are the next steps in your feminization (if any), or desires you haven’t tried yet but would like to?

My next step would be to go out in public with trans and crossdressing friends, to share this experience in a caring and safe environment.

A wish that tempts me but also scares me a bit would be to get my ears pierced. I’d like to wear real earrings to complete my feminine looks, but the commitment and others’ gaze still hold me back somewhat.

Why did you call on me, and what did I bring you in this stage of your life, if I brought you anything?

I follow several people on social media who have used male-to-female transformation services, notably in England, and that made me want to try it myself.

I wanted to see how credible I could be as a woman.

I also decided to take the step at that moment because I was on vacation, which gave me the opportunity to fully experience it without constraints.

This session mainly brought me lots of practical advice to perfect my makeup, but also a huge boost of confidence in my feminine self.

Tina, bigender, posing in a floral dress and heels after a makeup and feminization session at Transbeauté near Paris

Can you share an anecdote after this session? Or how did you feel after this session? What did you do right after our meeting?

I felt very beautiful and incredibly confident. This transformation gave me great confidence in my feminine appearance.

I immediately shared the photos with a few trans and crossdressing friends online, and their feedback was extremely positive. They told me I looked amazing, which boosted me even more.

With this new assurance, I took courage in both hands and went out near my home to take photos outdoors, in the outfit I had prepared to go back out as a woman after the session.

Thank you, Tina!

Tina’s journey shows that it’s not always necessary to define everything. You can enjoy feminizing yourself without wanting to change your whole life. You can need discretion while wanting to exist fully. You can fear others’ judgment while feeling great pride looking at your reflection.

After her session at Transbeauté, Tina leaves with more than just makeup advice. She leaves with a stronger, more affirmed, more confident image of herself.

Her next desire is simple: to go out in public with friends, in a caring environment. And that’s exactly what she will do!

Yes, my dears, if you look closely, Tina appears at Transbeauté parties, notably in the blog articles from December and April.

And that’s not all. Tina even came back to see me for a shopping outing. (Next Tina testimony soon on my Blog!)

The perfect combo: makeup session, accompanied evening out, and shopping outing. A beautiful way to go even further, at her own pace, with gentleness and confidence.

In the end, Tina understood everything: Transbeauté is not just a makeup moment. It’s also a space where you can discover yourself, reassure yourself, and then dare to go a little further.

And if you also feel the need to explore your femininity in a discreet, caring, and non-judgmental setting, a Transbeauté makeup session can be a reassuring first step. A moment to discover yourself, ask your questions, learn the right makeup techniques, and leave with an image of yourself that truly reflects you.

See you soon

Jennifer