Julie opens up with emotion about her feminization

Today it’s Julie who contacted me to get makeup done.
Since it’s her very first time, I recommend she opt for a makeup and photo session.
Experience has shown me that this is truly the best way to envision oneself.

On the menu: you are made up by a professional, you let yourself be pampered, and then, a photo shoot as a girl! The result is almost immediate.

Julie quickly sent me her testimony; you have the chance to read her fresh emotions. Enjoy!

Hello Julie, can you introduce yourself?

Hello! My name is Julie (or Jacques depending on the day).
I am 53 years old and work in IT in Paris but live in the provinces.
I have 2 children who lead their lives as young adults and I have been divorced for over 12 years.
No girlfriend (just 3 relationships that didn’t last).

No one in my circle knows about my feminization, but I have a crazy desire to indulge my fantasies, my unspoken desires…
Probably because I am now in a healthy and serene situation, both professionally and with family.

But one question remains… Who am I?

A man, of course, by birth.
But when I transform my outer appearance to become a woman, am I transgender, crossdresser or…?

I am only at the very beginning of my feminization, but I already know that I am only attracted to people with a feminine appearance.
The path is still long.
But on this day, October 4, 2022, since my meeting with Jennifer, I am the happiest woman there is.

Julie is over the moon after her feminization

How long have you wanted to feel more like a woman?

As a teenager, I was always attracted to women’s underwear.
But never going further than a secret try-on, and only if the situation allowed.

In my family, adult remarks were regularly influenced by prejudices of another time: “Are you a man or a sissy?”
(I only quote this one as an example. I think many understand what I mean.)
Under such conditions, it was better to be discreet about this subject.

And since I am only attracted to the female gender, questions about my femininity no longer arose.

But throughout my life as a husband and father, I always felt that desire was present inside me, buried somewhere.
I “just” took advantage of costume parties to systematically dress as a woman.

Is it a temporary or permanent desire?

The desire is permanent and my greatest wish is to be able to live as a woman in my everyday life.

But for now, it will only be occasionally, when I’m in Paris.
It’s impossible for me to be a woman professionally.
And I’m not ready to announce my feminization to my family and friends.
However, I’ve crossed an important threshold today: I sent a photo to my best friend, my confidante. At first, she thought I was introducing my new girlfriend… but after looking closely at the photo, she understood.

She was not surprised, and above all she will accept me as I am.

Why this desire, what does it give you?

It’s very difficult to answer that question.
Why? I don’t know.
I don’t control this feeling.
It’s like love.
You don’t know why you’re in love with a person.
It’s our heart that commands us.
Here, it’s the same; as soon as I am dressed as a woman, even for a moment, I feel good without being able to explain it.

I feel that women’s clothes are softer and more pleasant to wear than men’s.

Except for the heeled ankle boots (LOL).

But since as a man I knew it takes suffering to be beautiful, I have no choice but to apply it to myself.

When did you decide to take action, that is to crossdress for the first time? For what occasion? What did you feel?

Aside from the few costume parties I attended, it’s very recently that I decided to cross that threshold.

At first, I searched online for people who could help me feminize.
Already, I have very poor taste in men’s clothes, so I absolutely need help.

Same for makeup.
So I found Jennifer’s website and decided to try it out.
My goal was then to see what was possible to do with my appearance.

If I liked it, then I planned to go further.
Otherwise, I’d drop everything and just go to bed at night in a slip that no one could see.

Do you have fears regarding society, your family, etc… any apprehensions, any embarrassment?

Fears, apprehensions, embarrassment…
yes, all of that at once, but differently depending on the environment.
Regarding family, I think I will never talk about it with my parents and brothers.
As for my children and ex-wife (we are very close, like siblings), someday I will have to tell them.
I am almost certain they will understand.
But it’s me who am not ready.
As for society, unfortunately, I believe it is not yet ready to accept differences.
Yes, I am afraid of others’ gaze, afraid of encountering a group of individuals who will not accept me crossing their path.

Jacques can go out however he wants without questioning his appearance, without fear, without worrying about others’ looks.
But if Julie goes out, she will do so in places where she is surrounded by people like her, different from the so-called norm of our society.
Surrounded by people where she will feel safe.

What are the next steps in your feminization (if any), or desires you haven’t yet tested but would like to?

First: Learn to do my own makeup and dress myself.
So, Jennifer... we’ll see each other again!

Then, to be able to present myself in a bar, a restaurant, and have a pleasant evening.

Finally, do everything to reduce, even eliminate, all this body hair that haunts me. If I could have natural breasts, I would be fulfilled! But let’s not rush anything. The steps will come in due time.

Why did you call on me, and what have I brought you in this stage of your life, if I brought you anything?

Did you bring me something? Oh yes!

Even if I struggle to find strong enough words to express what I feel.
In any case, you brought me happiness! (I’m still trembling tonight even though Julie has given way to Jacques)

You showed me what could be done with my body, my appearance.
You made me confident and I felt so comfortable with you.
Right away, you listened to and understood me.

What I found most wonderful in you was your expression when you found the outfit that suited me best. I saw your eyes sparkle. You were proud to have found what was needed to make me feel beautiful. Yes! you can be proud.
You did an exceptional job, in my eyes.

Some will say I’m not objective, but it doesn’t matter, you went beyond my expectations and I thank you.
By the way, everything is explained in my next answer.

What did you do right after our meeting?

As I explained, I came out of curiosity to see what could be done to feminize me. The result was so extraordinary in my eyes that I asked you the following question:
“Do you think you could dress me in my own clothes so I can leave your place as a woman?”

There too, I saw I surprised you a little.
But you accepted the challenge!

So it was Jacques who entered your home, and Julie who left.
I was proud, excited and still a bit worried.
I think it was mostly me who was overthinking others’ looks.
Because no one stared at me or gave me a strange look (at least I didn’t notice anything).

I learned and understood…

Throughout that half-day, I learned and understood that you must not blow your nose or wipe your mouth at a restaurant like a man at the risk of losing some makeup.
Then I understood that you must not leave your handbag open.
And finally I understood that you must keep your knees together when sitting.

But I also understood why you have to systematically visit the restroom (to check the outfit).
Understood why there is such a mess in a handbag (from taking things out, putting them away, again and again, you end up stuffing everything inside and then... you search).
In the end, I know I still have a long way to go to behave like you ladies do.

One last anecdote: during this day, I needed to buy hair clips.
I was surprised but very proud to hear the cashier say to me, “Goodbye Madam, have a nice day.”
After such an experience, it’s obvious I can’t stop here.
Today was my first time in my life as a woman.
It was a magnificent day!

Final word from Jennifer

“Thank you Julie!” A first feminization is a bit like meeting yourself, every little detail matters, the makeup but also the hairstyle and the outfit, to bring out the best in you!

But above all, what a joy when I see you all moved facing the mirror.

Leaving our session as a woman is a step I also support you through.
I know it’s a hurdle to overcome: showing the world who you are.

Above all, and more than anything else, it’s a true liberation!