Emma: free to be who she wants

Today, it’s Emma we welcome at Transbeauté.
Her testimony teaches us about her but… argh, I’m not going to spoil it!

In any case, discover Emma in 4 different styles during the photoshoot.

At the end, I’ll tell you more about our sessions!

Hello! Can you introduce yourself? Age, gender, family situation, profession, city.

“Hello! My name is Emma. I’m 51 years old, divorced, and a single parent with my two daughters, a dog, and a cat. So, we live as a girls’ household.

I work in IT for a French banking group in Paris, and I live in the 91

When did you decide to take action, that is to crossdress for the first time? For what occasion? What did you feel?

My earliest memories date back to when I was 6 or 7 years old.
At that time, I dressed up in my grandmothers’ clothes without understanding the importance it had for me.

Then at 12, for the first time, I put on makeup and wore my mother’s clothes.
That day, I realized it was a visceral need.
Then I started permanently borrowing clothes from my mother.
For example, dressing as a woman at night while my parents were sleeping.
Very quickly, I understood I wanted more…

Then as I grew older, I bought my own clothes, my own makeup, and it continues today.

How long have you wanted to feel more feminine? Is it a temporary or permanent desire?

I have always wished to live a woman’s life; psychologically, I feel much more woman than man.
I love the diversity of women’s clothes, jewelry, high heels, but not only that.

Makeup is an art for me, I want to master it to appear as a woman in everyone’s eyes.

During my couple life, I put this part of me aside a bit.
Yet, even if my wife let me do it, I didn’t necessarily do it when I wanted because I forbade myself.

After my divorce, following a short period of 10 months being a “pure” man, I started dressing as a woman again, so for a little over a year now.

Little by little, I went out for shopping, then I went to work as a woman, and now, I would say 99% of my life is feminine. What a joy!

Why this desire, what does it bring you?

Actually, it’s quite simple: I am myself, as I see and feel.
The physical man is just an actor who has spent his life taking the place of the person inside me. I am Emma, even if after 50 years, David exists and is present, and I’ve learned to live with him, but now it’s Emma’s turn to live her life.

However, by habit, I have a hard time expressing this mannered side I have hidden for so long, and I’m still a bit lost about gender when I talk about myself.

For now, I am like a little girl living her princess dreams by putting on dresses, makeup, jewelry, and high heels.

I am so fulfilled that people stop me in the street to say my smile radiates happiness and that it’s a pleasure to see.

It’s a moment in my life I’m living that I never thought I could live, so I savor every second!

Do you have fears regarding society, your family, etc.? Any apprehensions or discomfort?

None!

My close family: my mother and my daughters have accepted me.
That is a very important support for me.
Without them, I wouldn’t have been able to break free from this masculine prison without their support.

For others, I accept their remarks, fears, or whatever they have to say, but I don’t give them a choice.

My whole life I did what people told me to do; I think no one really noticed, especially since it made me unhappy. So now I live my life!

What is also important is that all my loved ones accepted me as I am and everyone told me I was foolish to wait so long. (I came out to them last year).

So no discomfort or apprehension because I managed to put them aside.

And if it shocks or puzzles people, too bad for them…

What matters to me is my happiness, not others’.

What are the next steps in your feminization (if any), or desires you haven’t tried yet but would like to?

I wouldn’t know how to say or predict the future. I already savor the present. I’ve waited so long for this moment without thinking I’d be able to make it. The future will be what it will be because it will be the present… of later, so I will savor those moments all the same. What’s certain is that I will be the one to decide what they will be!

Near-term desires are very simple, for example being able to wear a hair clip on my real hair that I’m now growing back after shaving it, being capable of doing my makeup and leaving no doubt in people’s minds about whether I am a woman or not.

In one sentence: “Live my life as a woman!”

Why did you call on me, and what have I brought you in this stage of your life, if I brought you anything?

I discovered your site last year while I was searching for anything related to crossdressing, makeup, or any experience that could help me in my transition.

Reading the testimonials touched me, and I felt a connection between you all.

Wanting help to learn how to do makeup, I naturally reached out to you for this felt connection, which, I confirm, is real;

Of course, I also reached out to you for your makeup artist talents, which are equally real! With a lot of work to teach me how to do makeup like you do.

And finally, that photo session you offer, which is a moment of pure happiness.
I felt like a model in a photoshoot.

So, thank you for this time spent and looking forward to the next one.

Closing word from Jennifer

“A big thank you, Emma!”

One of the highlights of our sessions is choosing the outfit. For those who come with their wardrobe, discovering the clothes, shoes, jewelry, is a moment I particularly enjoy! Some tell me my eyes sparkle!

I also know it is an important moment: you open up more. Thank you for your trust.

By the way, for those who don’t have clothes, I can offer, for the duration of a session, jewelry, bags, dresses, skirts, high heels, etc. I know it’s not always easy to have your wardrobe at home (you know what I mean…).
So I also offer a caretaking service.